you know

you know, you people are my friends I appreciate all the help and presence when i need you guys but I just have to say this and I don't think I can say it in front of you guys without sounding harsh so to avoid misunderstandings I'm just gonna write it down here, in hopes that you'll read it...re-read it if u wanna...and understand.


A joke is funny..all he-he-ha-ha's but when a joke is repeated more than twice, its annoying...and if the joke concerns my relationship with ubey, its not funny anymore after the second time. so I hope you'll understand cause you don't know what we're going through every day. It's hard being in a long-distance relationship already, so I don't need people putting ideas inside my head that he's seeing someone else/cheating on me (I know its meant as a joke, but still) while I'm sleeping blablabla. You don't know how much it'll play inside my head, or psyched me so much that i believe its true so to avoid THAT, lets just NOT go to that topic again...ok? it doesn't mean that being almost six years together that its a sure thing, there's no telling what might happen in the future but i hope to make it last as long as it could...i need help, not sympathy and harsh comments. i know he's not that type but everything you say is like a prayer. the more you say it, the more possible it will happen.


it's just seriously NOT funny anymore that I felt like you guys are taking my relationship as if its a soap drama...i can laugh along but seriously...no...i can't go there anymore. no matter how cool i seem to be when being put on the spot its just not telling what i actually feel in my heart.

so, help me... if you are not, then i know now what your intentions are...

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PS: smoking does NOT make you look like a whore, but smoking when you're pregnant? you should be smacked til your brains slap the concrete for that