seeing another friend's wedding album makes me feel more unsure. will i ever find my happy ending? will it be soon? or will it be later? will it be with this man of my dreams? or will it be with someone else...i only see plans for now but there are still no concrete promises. no doubt i'm happy for my friend, but the jealousy will always be there. they didn't have to wait as long as i do to have their fairytale realized.
people have always told me it's not good to get married that young but what if i KNOW and FEEL that i'm ready. what if the feeling is already there?
i'm just scared that if things don't go as planned, then what would become of me?
i've put my life on this for so long i can't bear losing it at all....