on a break

everything's been such a whirlwind

there's just too many things to do

meantime, will be on hiatus...till i say so =P


will update soon, maybe.

well, hello december

holidays are supposed to be, exciting and fun, no?



I don't know what's been bothering me lately but I've been staying at home 24/7, being a good typical 'perempuan melayu terakhir' and all. dad's been pleased though. of course, cause for the past weeks before summer school started i've been in and out of the house like nobody's business. haven't partied ever since though, i still have yet to wear all the new dresses i've bought. i'm selling some too, those tht i've never worn or even saw daylight.


back to the main story, yeah, well...... I guess i'm just preparing myself for possible outcomes end of this month. I can't say it'll end well, you wouldn't know wht life brings you, but let's just say I think I'll know what to do when the time comes. Following my heart would be the best thing to do, other than just being rational and weighing out everything.


Sometimes, especially on matters of the heart, you can't be too analytical, or else you'll shut the doors to even give love a chance, innit? of course, you gotta think about what good it'll do you, but what if it IS the train you're supposed to ride on, are you gonna miss it? or would you catch it before it leaves you, even when you're unsure of where your pitstop would be?



*ok hanie, enough with the metaphors, you're gonna confuse people now cause you talk crap that only you'd understand haha*


if all else fails, you still have your friends to fall back on...no matter how far or not present they are, they'll always have a space in their hearts to listen and be the one for you to confide in. i dont think i can ever hate my girlfriends no matter what they do, although it hurts but i guess i love them more to even spark even a molecule-sized hatred.

I just feel empty, like my heart departed somewhere else. Thus, things aren't even a quarter of fun I had back then. I wonder why too, i prefer being cooped up at home, just checking my facebook and forcing myself to flip another page of a good book and indulge in sinful meals.

*i should start on my cardio back, or I'll lose the stamina again*

my tummy shrunk and i'm starting to see the lines across my abdomen, again. finally. and i'm aiming to get my bikini body back, especially a perfectly arched back, you know, with the line trailing down your spine and smooth curves.


and i'm not a gym person, sorry =P

so don't ask me how i'm gonna do all this.
i know how i'm gonna, i did it before and i'm gonna do it again.

i cut down on the cancer sticks... ALOT! a box can last me for about a week! hahahah although the occasional before showering session can't be missed.

but seriously,


why does puffing while taking a dump is a worldwide acceptable habit?


does it really help?

ok, i'm straying too far from the main topic here.

last thing that i could retrieve from this junkyard brain of mine is that, some ppl shouldn't be poking and snooping around my private life eh. lemme tell u now that what you see might not what it is, at least for now. you think you know, but you have no idea. i don't care what you want to say about me but at least i'm mean/bad/a bitch and i know it, i admit it. I've a huge pet peeve on people who isn't far from how I am is judging me while they act so pure and innocent...please, you're gonna make me puke blood...with added glitter summore.

so you see, i can see through all of you that I will know from the start on your character by how you think, talk and walk. I will be able recall every single snippet of scenes you've made or how you look at me and match the jigsaws together. so save all the niceness people, i dont need it if you're not sincere. i'll be nice, of course, but it'll be limited to a smiles and nods. you're a speck of dirt on my shoulders that I can brush off anyway.




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ok back to happy thoughts,
i don't want my readers to jump into my emotional/bitchy train wreck now.


one utama on Sultan Selangor's bday...not satisfied, didn't get to scour through the whole mall =(


i've found the sexy laced up oxford boots i've wanted for so long, but my mom n dad gave me hell over a pair of shoes....tiu?




Me: OMGGGG i've always wanted these!!!! *points to shoe, asked for size*

Mum: heh, what kind of shoe are u picking ni?

Me: it's the in thing on the runways noooowwww and it's so hard to find a good one!

Mum: pick something else la!

Me: eyerrrr, they're typical sandals laaa.. so ah lian. me don't like.

Dad: *gave me the "are you done yet?" look*

Salesgirl: miss, no more size 7. biggest is 6.

Me: Fcking hell, gimme!

*squeezed it in, sighed at the beauty of it, but dissapointed tht it's slowly attacking every red blood cells on my right foot*

nvm then *muka setengah sen, gives it back to salesgirl*

walks off the store and headed to Zara...

Dad: how come u suddenly like all these murder heels?

Me: they're so nice, and not everyone can pull them off yknow!

Dad: but they look like whore shoes kekeke like those prostitute ones

Me: * gave the tulan face* u mean dominatrix ones?
isn't that sexy?

Dad: I don't want you to look like that.

Me: and you let me wear everything else? wtf....nvm


(-_-")



i can wear mini skirts, and plunging necklines and barebacks and halters and tube in front of them but not dominatrix heels? sigh...the irony. i can't even wear shorts and flip flops as much...cause they think it looks so ah lian...mmmkaaayyyyy *rolls eyes*



dad liked this flannel topshop shirt though so i bought it.

and leopard print cardi...super lawa!

some super cheap watch

and some summer reads

and a few usual stuff from La senza (it's like my candy lala land =P )




and i'm thinking of redoing my hair:

straight, or curl it?

i did this one myself, thats why it looks cacat.


gonna dye it maroon purplish brown though


i'm bored of being honey blonde or brown...been like tht since high school

should i still put highlights?


sigh, another two three hours in the bathroom...no funnnnn
*i do my own hair colour in case you're wondering*



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I can't wait for 2008 to end, it's been a fuckd up year for a lot of people.

I wish 2009 brings better things, although I (and also other few people) can foresee a mean girl drama wave crashing onto me beginning of the sem next year. hahaha bring it. i've been in worse dramas before, one tht nearly involves *whoops too much info* so this wannabe bitchy squabble is just a spit of chewing gum for me.



=)



toodles

decode

How can i decide whats right?
When you're clouding up my mind




I will figure this one out.


There is something,
I see in you,
It might kill me,
I want it to be true.





-paramore-

tagged by julia

pfftttt.... sempat lagi u tag i ye sayang?

*2 names you go by- Hanie and........Hanie?

*2 things ur wearing right now- billabong top and pj pants...

*2 things you want very badly at the moment- ohhhh it's a secret =P

*2 things you did last night just before bed- talked on the phone and skyped

*2 thing you ate today- KFC and chicken rice.......chicken is the shiznit yaw! haha

*2 people you just spoke with- my sis n ubey

*2 things you are doing tomorrow- be raya haji!

*2 longest car rides- to the border of Thailand and Kelantan, another was from one state to another in US, cant remember which is longest, all of em took forever!

*2 favorite beverages- F&N Strawberry & Coke

*2 person who are chose to do this tag- eka, alyaa

woot!

so much in one weekend

this is all you get, cause i'm sleepy =O *yawn*

summer school's boooo~ring

heeeeeee =D

End of November

the one page feature is out in bookstores!
Picture courtesy of Hariz.

i'm gonna try get a copy and take a photo of it mkayy?? hihi

Buys in November:
didn't shop as much cause I was too busy spending on food =P

plaid tube dress from some shop

topshop mini ruffle skirt

F21 Emblem Cardi

plaid shirt dress

had lunch with marshy and jeffy the other day. haven't seen them in ages cause they're working at Kuwait Fin Hse so it was a good change to be able to chill for a day.

and i've never seen anyone with THIS much hair products in one bag, and mind you, this is only quarter/half(?) of them hahahah

we had fun juggling it though, the bottom of the jar is rubber so it kinda bounces off the floor when you throw it


had a photoshoot before i went to PD as a favour. I was sposed to only do Julia's makeup ended up being one of the models as well.

this is the closest photos we'd get till Feb



on to the PD trip:


I swear it was one of the best trips i've ever been to with my friends despite the fact tht we went to JUST PD. last time it was that easy was the phuket trip.
i guess it was cause of the company that was just ok with anything and there were no disputes whatsoever, everyone just followed anyone who wants to go anywhere. there was no hassle and everyone was ok with whatever food there is.

I had four rooms to fill in Legends, but too bad we didn't get the water chalets. the hotel's fully booked and we even had to check-out at 12 and couldn't extend the time. i regret going during school holidays hahah

we reached the hotel, Legends Water Chalet and everyone settled to their rooms.

the first thing that the boys did was plug-in the Xbox (-_-")

and camwhored all over the room. trust me, this is only bits of the whole folder.

and while they were playing their game, i was in my room taking a nice bubble bath in the jacuzzi =)


away from the world's worries

had a few drinks and we're all out for dinner at some Tom Yam place with woozy heads camwhoring like a bitch

went back and played cards while i poured them more drinks.

i found a good cocktail recipe while experimenting :

4/5 parts white sparkling 2 parts F&N frutti tutti 1 part Vodka

try it!

and the drinking game starts,

it was all good during the police thief game up until we reach the numbers game....bad bad decision to play it. secrets were all spilled out. do NOT play it unless you're cool with telling your deepest darkest secrets 0.O



it was 2-3 and we're just jumping on the bed, playing xbox and there were some drama, bt nothing too serious =P

next day, shakila and fad and mandy and andrew jr arrived while I was having a shower and they all went for lunch while I stayed back to catch a tan. not too tanned though cause my tan lines from Tioman in July is still visible (surprising huh? i must've been really baked back then)

9 floors to my death



they came back, had a few drinks and we all went out for the beach. there was a beach nxt door but they just HAD to go to a public beach for the banana boat or jet skis hahahah

give fad some credit la, dia tengah sedut perut tu. kesian mati cacing-cacing in his beer gut hihihi


went back to the hotel arnd 8 and found this makcik trying to sell maggi cups to everyone =P

the rest went to the jaccuzi pool while we stayed at the beach next door and started the bbq

it rained halfway so we moved it inside glory beach reasort's apartments heheh

everyone was full and didn't finish the 8 whole chickens. still managed to fool around and camwhored like mad though

jerm trying to steal my 'ayu' modjo

playing hindi chasing scene with iman as the villain heheh

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played Charades and I swear it was the best one ever!

our team: Anthony, Yasmin, Me, Fad and Jeremy

Opponent team: Andrew sr, Mandy, Andrew jr, Shakila, Iman
theme: movie titles

the first one was our turn and we gave andrew "lion king"
he did pointed to his head and made a gesture of a round thing around his head hahahahahahhahaha bodoh gila!

the worst was Iman's "the little mermaid"
he did the big boobie gesture and andrew yelled "Big Momma?" hahahahahahha and did the flapping like a fish gesture hahahahah i swear i couldn't stop laughing!

they gave me "pocahontas"
i swear i was so blur i didn't know what to do and i just hantam anything. i did a feather on my head, then did the Hoo-Haa move and mcm panggang satay when in fact i wanted to show i was starting a fire hahahahah and no one could guess when suddenly fadhly out of nowhere said "pocahontas". till today, no one can figure out how he did it hahaha

and they gave me "troy"
It was so easy i knew what to do immedeatly so i went to the front and ran and did the achilles stab gesture and fadhly confidently yelled "Stomp the Yard". I burst out laughing like a motherfocker. WTF?!?! stomp the yard?!?!? hahaha and jeremy guessed it straight away cause we're fans of troy. sigh bodoh la fad....


finished off the charades and I went back to my room to shower cause I was soaked from the rain and i didn't wanna catch a cold while the rest continued partying in the room above. finished my shower checked on Abid and the rest and went up to the room apparently everyone was gone the moment i reached there! so fast! hahahahah there were puke stains hahahah ew!

and everyone was camwhoring like crazy I was just laughing cause Andrew and Iman won't stop hugging and kissing me hahahaha

i swear i've NEVER seen andrew THAT gone

I was just chilling and finishing off the munchies i brought

when Iman suggested that we play the "kissing card game"

rule is to pass the card using only your lips and if you're unlucky the card will fall and you might kiss. imagine the boys weyyy hahahahah

best picture of the night:

HAHAHAHAHAH
expression: priceless!

everyone managed to wake up the next day, checked-out and we headed off for lunch.
I felt like eating an authentic Negeri food so fad asked around and we ended up at Mak Mah's Restaurant which was REALLY REALLY good. the food was super spicy esp the siput sedut masak lemak cili api (snails in a spicy coconut gravy).

you can tell how spicy the food was just by looking at my lipcolour

it was jeremy's first time trying out negeri's food while the rest of us chomped down like crazy!

i had a runny nose afterwards hahahha



camwhored outside the restaurant and I don't know why each of the boys wants a picture with the girls

doing fad's dungu face hahah

went back to the car and saw this beautiful creature on the knob, Iman screamed like the girliest girl i've met and andrew sr tried to wind down the window so it'll budge. I went there and tried to pull it straight off the window and i SWEAR it was soooo heavy and strong. i pulled the wing but i forgot to hold the leg so it flew out of my hands and iman screamed again (-_-")

i'm not afraid of insects, only dislikes cicak (geckos), snakes and lizards and froooggsss!!

i like spiders and i don't mind catching a cockroach haha


we didn't wanna leave so early so we went around and decided to follow andrew and mandy check into their hotel at Avillion Admiral Marina, a new super cool and nice hotel at the Marina jetty. i think that was where the Tiesto event was held this year.

super nice pool and super cool view so we couldn't resist a swim and we did! hahah

Andrew senior the loan shark hahahah




here to show you how gay the boys are:

HAHAHAHAH

and a sniff of beer would wake Iman up from a deep sleep

And Andrew junior the supermodel:

on the way to dinner in town I saw that people actually camp at the beach O.0

hmmm

had a nice meal in town

we came up with a theory that PD people are generally quiet cause they don't talk to each other as much, even during dinner in a big group.

it's so obvious that we were outsiders due to our loudness =P

all in all we ended up with 300+ pics and mostly are not to be put here =P

imagine 4 albums on facebook, the hassle of transferring, editing, cropping, resizing and uploading...sigh

but it was all worth it =)

i wish the trip was never ending


=(


so i'm back to life, back to reality


-nov 08-

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