ain't it funny how things seem to weave its way around our lives?
Looking back to the past year, its amazing how some friends and I went through a lot of shit but we still manage to stand tall, today. I don't make resolutions on the beginning of the year, instead I usually look back, analyze the mistakes done and reminisce the good. That's how I roll. Even if I make any resolutions I don't stick to them so I don't bother to anymore =P
But it's true, I feel proud that I get to experience all that I did in 2008, no matter how good or bad it was. It made me grow wiser and better, not to mention stronger. I developed a thicker skin to what people said about me and know that they can say whatever they want as long as I know where I stand. I learned to slowly mend the cuts slashed on me and not to close my heart to better things even though I know it might hurt me. I also learned to not take in everything but laugh through most things and accept it with wide arms open. I learned that some things just happens and I do not have control over it nor should I feel guilty that it did.
I am not proud of some of the things I've done in 2008, but I take it as a step to be a better person and learn from it. I've also learned not to give in all the time, barricade myself with some ego instead of just following other people's expectations. I learned not to say sorry for things I feel that is not wrong, and I learned to put aside petty things that are just like flies, pesky and irritating.
I realized this year was the year I enjoyed myself the most, party-wise haha and I also went to more places and saw more things. I hope I get to travel more in 2009. I realized that there are people who love and care for me for who I am inside and despite the rumours they still stuck by me no matter what. I thank you guys. I may not have been the best friend you could have but I hope the day that I did was enough to make you smile. People come and go but memories last forever.
I learned to cherish life more when I nearly drowned in Phuket, and to live everyday as if its the last. I learned that its easy to hate than to love, thus I have to think twice before I start hating so I'll be more careful to love.
I think I need to finally get myself checked this year.my body and lungs is fucked so badly that I get sick so easily every now and then, and it never happened before. It all started after the Tioman trip and my dad fears its some bronchitis problem. but first and foremost, I need to get over my fears of a medical checkup and hospitals. i got over the fear of needles though.
speaking fo needles, i've decided that for every major event tht happens in my life, im gonna get a piercing. so nxt up is either the double tongue piercing, or the industrial ear piercing (i cant believe it costs more than the tongue piercing haha gila!
I haven't gone white-water rafting yet, and I really really want the Greece/Spain trip to happen in 2009. I finally rode in the mini 160km/h uphill in Genting while it was raining. I got a DSLR camera and took tons of gorgeous photos (or at least I thought so haha). I got myself a sidekick phone, finally. Got into some girly catfight dramas that would put the o.c to shame. Survived a year of long-distance relationship and taking baby steps through it. And please please pleassseeeeee 2009, let me graduate with a double degree. I hate uni. =P
2008 has been mostly shitty but a good learning experience, nonetheless =)