A lot of people have been asking me lately whether I'm down, emo or having PMS. I guess little things in life are biting me on a daily basis that it irks me sometimes that somehow I can't seem to just ignore it. However, when I look back, no matter how demented my life course is, I still find it to be a beautifully structured life. I know God is gracious and His plans for me is bountiful. I may not know my purpose in life yet but I know I'm meant to make a difference, either on my own account or the people that's closest to me...
While I was talking to Point8Cam the other day (we shared artsy stuff online, nothing cheeky going on here F.Y.I lol), I realized that I'm not really depressed where I'm-emo-cause-everyone-hates-me-and-the-world-don't-understand-me kind but I call my state as the 'Artfully Depressed'. Now that's more like it. Fancy without being too dark. So me. It's like I blinged emo-ness HAHAHAHA
Why 'Artfully Depressed'? Well, I tend to 'feel' things more intensely than usual. Let's say if I feel a breeze while standing at the balcony, I can just close my eyes and it's like the wind tells me a story to evoke my emotions. I see the beauty in little things like the roughness of a wooden table, and the texture of cloth. I see everything like a picture now. Even when I take random photos (which I tend to do more than camwhoring), I somehow know how I want the end-result to look like. I feel like I'm chasing surreality in everything I see, hear and touch. Point8Cam thinks I should embrace it, which I agree too actually. Maybe something good (hopefully epic) will come out of it someday.
(photo taken in Milan, Italy - 2008)
I do however wish that things would be eternal and timeless. I do admit that catching up with things I miss just leaves me panting at the door and of all I know, I missed great things that I can't rewind. I miss the old days when I can just roam free without any huge commitments towards anyone. I can drive up to anywhere I want out of randomness and just run around at night up a hill.
Now that I've passed that phase in life, my dad have been telling me, "you must know what you want in life"...I do know what I want, to a certain degree. But just letting nature take its course are sometimes more exciting. I don't know what the hell am I talking about at 12.26 a.m in the morning already cause I'm writing nonsense now hahaha I wish I can sleep on a bed of roses -_-"
yes, I am THAT random.
(shot by PixelArtPhotos on the Monash Lecture Hall carpet)
OK lah I know this is random and pointless but I just like to write nonsensical things like these at times. OH! and I just wasted a few minutes of your life....booyah!
On another note, please help a friend here
by writing on his post comment section on why he should meet Wayne Rooney.
All of us knows he deserves it. Everyone should have chances like these in their lives and I feel that he should have this one =)
Oh and we came up with this cute idea over the weekends! LOL everyone's face is on the field positions including mine HAHAHAHHA