In less than 8 hours time, it'll a whole new year, a whole new decade. A new me. And hopefully a newer you, too.
Wow, 2010 brought many memories, and I knew it was gonna be a life changing year. Many things happened, and I can say for sure that it'll be the year I'll remember the most. It's funny how things continued from 2009, spiraled out of a hectic year. I learned so much, in terms of work, family, money, growing up, relationships, improving thyself, dealing with in my level of hard knock life, real friends, and many more. I was in such an emo and down state of self-pity until I met someone who gave me a breath of life. And I have never regretted taking his hand on this journey so far.
I'll be very honest here. I know that some of my readers were wondering why such a whirlwind in my relationship, and between family matters and finding my own self. I have tons of explaining to do but I will keep it simple for now. I have been very lost since an ex boyfriend left to United States, and being in denial, I just pretended everything was okay, that I was as strong as an ox when in fact, I was not. My only solution was to just deal with it, move on, and live day in, day out. I'm sorry for those I've hurt and I feel sorry to myself for letting my heart be hurt in return.
Family-wise, I guess it's just a phase of me turning into a butterfly but I avoided everyone and stayed in my own cocoon, and I guess it hurt my family in the process. I am slowly breaking out, and I hope little by little my parents will be able to accept and support me for who I am and what I'd wanna do. They're worried about my future, whether I'll be able to actually fend for myself and I know I can, but convincing them and showing them that takes time and I will make sure I will make them proud one day.
In short, 2009 and 2010 was big leaps for me. I'm hoping 2011 will be way better and bigger. Come on, world. I'm ready to take on you. Even if I fall I've got my pillow to break it =)
HAPPY NEW YEARS
to all my readers, I hope 2010 has been gentle and 2011 has more in store for you.
I'm thankful that most of you are still reading. I'm sorry for anyone that I've hurt unintentionally and I'm happy for those I've inspired. I'm also grateful that I've gained tons more readers, interesting ones. I would love to share more things with all of you, be it informative, inspiring and all things awesome. I'd like to go to more places, share with you things I find to be beautiful and maybe change your perception on what's beautiful and in store out there for you. It may not be all positive all the time but take on life, like how you'd take on your enemy. Conquer it and make sure it listens to you cause only you can make that difference.