People keep telling me, "Don't worry. Keep working hard, stick to what you believe in, persevere during hard times, be sincere in your efforts and you'll be rewarded".
Sometimes, things just don't work out well as you expect it to be, but that's life. I don't know if the choices I make today, will give me positive yield in the future but all I can do now is keep trying. No matter what people can say, I know I just gotta stay real and believe that it's for long-term.
Some say I dream big. I say if I wanna do things, I'll do it big. But I gotta prepare myself to fall hard too. Dad told me "bigger things have bigger risks". I'm lucky to have a support system that I can fall on, although it's not big, it's still reliable and I sometimes forget about that. But I'm only human. I gotta keep reminding myself that, even when I know I'm doing my best, there's always someone better.
It's true that these things I'm surrounded with, sometimes poisons me to be someone I'm not. To be such an unlikeable person. But all I need is that few people to keep pulling me back down to the ground.
I heard a good speech the other day. That person said "When the time comes, and that something is in front of you to take your life away, are you ready to tell yourself that you've lived a good life, and you didn't hurt anybody?"
In that instance, I know I'm not ready yet. I have so much more to give and much more to live for. I have so much love to show, but I'm consumed with hatred and I gotta turn that around. I need more time, to change things, although sometimes it seems unreachable. But I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not gonna be around that long, thus I guess it is time I have to keep working a little harder. At least when my time is up, I can say that "I've lived a good life and I'm ready to go"