I've been sitting here for hours, just staring at the screen scrolling from one page to another, doing a repetitive habit of refreshing certain pages just to see what's new. I constantly find myself just feeling lost, dazed and just plain hollow. With hesitation, I welcomed this familiar feeling of nothingness, as if my existence is being reduced to just a mere floating speck. I currently lack any inspiration, let alone motivation for anything. I try to squeeze out creative juices, just to even write my train of thoughts and I'm down to just words of frustrations that doesn't even form complete sentences. I hope this is just a phase, cause I'm dying to crawl out of it and start bouncing off walls and be alive all over again.
Or maybe, I just need a proper break. A break from thinking about how I can make other people's lives better, instead of mine.
And here I sit, in the darkness of my mind again, waiting for the daylight to shine.
My portrait taken by Rayyiu Radzi on film.
Check out this talented young lad on his journey through his lenses on his website http://www.rayyiuradzi.com/