Come to think of it, as much as I was not excited for Raya, I kinda actually miss it. I guess it's just a phase where I don't feel as merry as I should be, thus I did not welcome Raya this year with an open heart. I just thought that it's something that was just a tradition, no more or no less. With a very unconventional Raya morning food that my sister and I made, I also just realized that I only had proper Raya meal only twice within the month of celebration. Seemed like a sad and dull Eidul Fitr for me indeed.